Friday, May 30, 2008

Sorry!

Due to much work craziness and no internet access at home I have been unable to post any updates lately and I do apologize. I promise many a fun update just as soon as I return from Boston next week. And after the wedding in June.

Monday, May 19, 2008

The Lovers, the Dreamers and Me

I met with a financial advisor today and other than being embarrassed at having to admit to an expert all the inexpert ways I spend my money, I enjoyed it immensely. I think a large part of my enjoyment was because this meeting is one of several new catalysts in my life for goal setting and dreaming.

I don't take time to do this enough. To ask myself (and then voice to others) the acts I want to accomplish, the person I want to be, and the places and things I want to experience. It's so easy to get caught up in the day to day getting byness and forget where I meant to be headed. I don't want to lose sight of all those grand visions and castles in the clouds. I need the inspiration and rich flavoring that dreaming adds to my seemingly insignificant days. Dreaming gives me hope and reminds me of who I am.

I am an over comer and I am ready to fight back. I'm done pulling a Jonah and am on my way back to kicking asses and taking names. I will take better hold of this time given to me and I will do something good and lasting and great with it. Bring it on!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Let Your Yes be Yes

I agreed to teach Sunday preschool at a friend's church here in town after going over my budget and realizing that I need the $75 I will be paid for doing this "favor". "It'll be as easy as craving chocolate!" I assured myself and brashly accepted the position.

I figured that even though I said I never wanted to teach again after quitting last year, this would be an ok compromise to make under the circumstances. It's just three Sundays for half an hour each time (which is a significant improvement from the 60+ hours a week I used to work) and I'll be paid. Also, I'm great at it. There's no reason to say no.

However, I fear that I may have greatly underestimated the depth of my burn out and the strength of my fiery hatred for all things teaching. I guess sometimes you don't know how much you don't want to do something until you do it.

Any ideas on how I can get motivated to make lesson plans? Or at the very least get motivated to show up on Sunday?