It's Alright, It's OK

Walking to the mailbox the other day I had a life changing moment of revelation. Are you ready for it? Here it is...

"I'm ok."

At first glance this may not seem like much but take a moment to think about how many things we do in life because we don't think we're ok. I eat because I'm "not ok" being hungry, I have a job because I'm "not ok" living on the streets. I have car and health insurance in case someday my body or my car isn't ok etc. Not to be cliche but advertising thrives off convincing us of all the ways we aren't ok so that they can turn around sell us (insert product of the day) by promising us that (product) is the one thing that will finally make us ok. Don't forget to throw in a sexy lady or two because if you aren't one of these or don't have one of these there is no excuse for your existence. Messages like this can easily push us to feel like we're not ok just the way we are but we might be if...

Here are a few voices I've been known to hear directed at me: "Your taste in art and music is different than mine; you must be a devil worshiper!" "Over 99lbs! tsk. You're practically a cow!" "You get angry ? I'm sorry, you can't be a woman if your going to have feelings like that. Get rid of them immediately; especially if they might tempt you to think you're worth something and stand up for yourself!" "You don't want to get married and have babies?!! God help us, they're letting the crazies roam the streets unsupervised!"

So really, the fact I was able to hear the gentle voice of unconditional love over the constantly present ,demanding, and aggressive clamour of negative and hateful voices, is something of a miracle.

It was brief and fleeting but it was enough. Life is still not perfect. I am still far from perfect but it's ok because I am and this isn't the end.